Day 5 Stages of Grief

I went through the five stages
   of grief today
   & it only took about thirty minutes
out of my day
I was seduced by denial
   because I knew this was the end
   I was rapidly getting angry
so I started bargaining
...I'll do better or try something different ...
   ...if this isn't the end...
   my silent unanswered cries
brought way to my depression
I knew I had to stop fighting my tears
   it hurt less when you did
   so I took a deep breath, let them fall
& just accepted it
I went through all five stages
   of grief today
   & it was the longest
most painful thirty minutes of my day...

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