Goodbye

This is one of them it's hard to say goodbye poems. I began thinking back at all the people I should have said goodbye too and their exits in my life. Like, if I had told my ex-girlfriend goodbye then she wouldn't have gotten hurt. If I had told her goodbye then maybe we'd still be friends or at most together. Same with some friendships I've had to end. If I had left and bowed out gracefully then we'd still at least be cordial.
I thought with the passage of time that I started saying goodbye. I figured though saying goodbye would hurt it was the lease painful. So, in the spirit of goodbyes here is...

Goodbye

I've never told anyone goodbye

my mom died and I still hold her inside

I can't bring myself to part with her memory

even at high tide

when the storm beats at my door

tears run down my face

goodbye is something I can't say

something I can't face

so when the time comes

for someone to leave

I just nod my head

and silently grieve

I've never said to anyone goodbye

when my dad left, I was stone faced

I kept to myself

and retreated to my quiet place 

when the winds howled

and the ocean crashed against the rocks

I take a deep breath

knowing the storm would never stop

so when the time comes 

for an extended time away

I put away the memories

and never again think of the day

I've never said so much as goodbye

when the love of my life took my heart

I just smiled

and vowed to a new start

but scars weren't fading

the wounds wouldn't heal

the blood kept running

and I'm hurting still

so when it comes

to not seeing someone anymore

I love away the memory

behind a steal door

I've never said goodbye

my heart won't let me

it keeps telling my mind 

I'll see you again you see

but now I need to move on

I need the storm to subside

so I'm gonna start with you

this is my goodbye